Surrogate Round 2

Hey everyone, well what a year 2010 was. I thought it was the right moment to start up the blog and more so with great news. The past 4 months have been great. Although the surrogacy didn't work on my first try I have good feelings it will work on round 2. 2011 is only a week away and I am ready for what ever the year will bring. I have 3 amazing people in my life, my girlfriend Emily, my sister Tiffani and my son Chase. I only see a great year ahead for the 3 of us. I couldn't ask for 3 better people to be surrounded with daily. The 3 of them truly make my life a happier place and they make it easy to wake up each morning with a smile on my face. My son is a spit in image of me and he makes me laugh so hard I cry. My sister has grown up to be a mature girl who I am so lucky to watch grow up to the wonderful woman she is. An my girlfriend she is not just an amazing role model for the kids but an incredible woman who completes me and just makes me so happy to have found the love she has shown me. With love an support from them as well as my friends I know this surrogate journey will be a success.

Tests have been done and meds have been started. I am planned to be in New York for my transfer the end of January. I started making this decision not knowing what anyone was going to think or say. Will all the love, and messages I have received I am so lucky to have you all in my life. I knew about 2 great guys who had a great marriage and career and just missing one special piece for them to have a family. These men went from strangers to people I can call great friends. Exchanging weekly emails, funny jokes and even Christmas cards. I can not express how this journey has already changed my views of the world. I am so happy to be able to try this again and as we wrote out their Christmas card this year it said "We can wait to address this to 3 next year''. I am so lucky to have been joined together with them and even more hopeful that all will be a success this time around.

So I wanted to give everyone an update and share my happiness. Thank you for all of your support and I will continue to share my journey with each of you as it unfolds. Wish me luck.... 

Updated News....

Hey everyone, I was waiting to update my blog until I had news on all the testing that had been done. I thought the worst part was the 11 day wait for news but the news was definitely the worst part. I am a strong person but I will be the first to admit it hit me harder then I had anticipated.

Well my tests came back negative. It was nothing I did at all. The embryos that they had frozen and then thawed out just weren't of the best quality. They had 5 and all had to be thawed for the quality of the best 2, which still were not 100 percent. So I received the news the same day as the blood work, and let the family know. We are all bummed and yet we all knew the chances were slim once they saw the embryos.

I am still going to continue in there dream of having a family. Now the process just starts over. It will begin again in about 4-6 weeks. They have to work with the donor and then we will start again. I am very hopeful that it will work the next time and only wished it was a positive result this time. Nothing more we can do now then to start again.

I would like to say thanks to everyone for all of your support and I am so thankful for all the great comments, emails and messages I have received from everyone. My life is going great and I am very happy with my decision to continue on this journey even though it did not work the first chance. So it has yet to end here, it is just another beginning...

The NYC trip

I want to start by saying thank you for everyone wishing me Good luck and for all the emails and such I received. Sorry I was unable to blog while I was in Ny but I didn't have my laptop with me. So I arrived in New York on Monday. I had dinner with the guys. The dinner could not have gone any better. We were literally there for 4 hours, laughing, talking even telling some jokes. The connection was perfect and we all knew we had made a great decision picking one another.

We decided Tuesday we were going to grab lunch before the transfer. We met at a little cafe and already felt as if we had been friends for years. After lunch we walked around until our appointment at 1:30pm.  By now all my nerves had just gone away. It was so real, it was so accurate to why I had made this decision for them, for myself , for all the right reasons. The joy on there faces talking about a child or twins and the hopes and dreams they had it took all I had to keep tears in. It was just a glow upon my face that just said 'Jess, you are truly changing someones life for all the right reasons'. An I could not be any happier.

We arrived at the office a little early and they were already prepared for us. I went to a room as if you were to get a normal gyno check up. Not hospital like as what I had assumed. Above me was all a tv to which led to where the embryos were frozen, thawed and kept. They had 5 embryos and out of 5, 2 were of good quality. So it was a little upsetting to hear that there were no longer others to fall back in. So time to put all the pressure on me if this doesn't take we all much start from the very beginning.  No pressure I kept saying in my head, mean while just trying to keep the sweat from falling off my forehead. There were 2 and they were okay so we went on. The whole process took maybe 11 minutes and painless as anything. Once they were transferred and by a hairline tool you could actually see them fall into the uterus. Looked just like shooting stars on the screen, so leave it to be to lighten up the room and start singing "Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky were like shooting stars, We could really use a wish right now right now.. " We all laughed and it brought everyone spirits up a lot. So I sat for about 20 minutes and now all we can do is wait. No heavy lifting, no working out, taking it easy for 2 weeks. The test will be done next Friday Oct 8 and it will tell us yes or no to it working, from there another test is done that Monday to say if yes is it 1 or 2.

If you know me well at all you know my patience eh is very good so this wait is just torture on me. Now just the wait but to know if it worked or do we need to start from day 1. So all good wishes would be fabulous right now. I am not one to trust my hope in God or a higher being but anything to give some positive thoughts my way would be very very appreciated. So now all we can do is wait and hope that life does great things..


Thank you again for all the love and support I have received it only helped my nerves, my thoughts and well made me smile the whole time since I started to share in blogs with everyone.. Well the time finally came, and lets just keep our chin up... 

It is here....

Hey everyone well I am off to New York tomorrow. I feel like it was just yesterday I was even asked about this. Then came the worry of how people would react, I talked about my journey and now here it is. Wow!! I went for my last ultrasound on Thursday and apparently I am so ready I am like a Caribbean vacation. I of course with my wit and humor says to the doctor 'Wow, I wish I knew I had a vacation spot, I should start charging a fee'. Of course, she didn't see my humor. Ha. I did find it quite funny.

So now here I am Sunday all packed and ready to head to New York in the morning on the Amtrak. Going to have dinner with the guys in the wonderful Bryant Park. I am a little nervous about that, I hope they like me. But it is like we have known each other a lot longer with our daily exchange of emails. I will also fill everyone in on how the meet and greet goes, any advice?

Well I am very excited and very ready for what the next 3 days shall bring, I mean besides the amazing Ny food I can't wait to eat. I also plan to blog the next 3 days so you can all continue of this journey I am leading. I am so thankful for all of your support I feel like it was just yesterday I had decided to start this blog hoping at least one person would ready it. Well now well over 600 have. I can't begin to express how amazing that makes me feel. It really shows me that it doesn't matter how often you talk to someone, if someone if family or once even maybe an enemy but when someone feels the joy and the journey you are about to embark on and welcomes your decision with open arms well that is what just lets you know you have real friends. Thank you again so much for all the support. Tuesday at 2pm is the day.

Will blog tomorrow evening, and you can follow me tomorrow on facebook. What would it be with out an update of my train ride.. Wish me luck... 

Can I be any more excited??? 1 week away...

Well I can not believe it is almost here. An wow just a week away. I will be glad to get the needles out of the way and begin the most exciting part of this whole journey. I have had blood work done and all was on track.   Tomorrow morning have some more blood work and then a full check to make sure all is ready this Thursday for next Tuesday. I am sooo ready..

The big needles are rough and doing them yourself is very scary. But it is all so very worth it. I am sorry this won't be a long blog but I don't have much to tell about this past week and the fact I have been working non stop and just my blood work being done. I think I am just still so excited I only have a week left. It seems like just yesterday I was going to share all this with everyone and now here it is.

Well next Monday I leave for New York and am going to have dinner and sight see a little with the guys. Tuesday September 28 morning is the day..  I plan to blog next Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday so you can all experience everything with me.. I again thank you so much for all your support and I am so grateful for all of your love you have shared with me.

I know I have said this before but It is not always the family you are born into but the one you make for yourself. An I truly feel all of you are a part of my 'family' and love everyone who is sharing this journey with me..

Send some questions or just kudos to me so I have something to respond too.. Ha... 

Wow, just 2 weeks to go..

Watching the Video Music Awards tonight, so this blog is a little later then usual. But I am blogging as promised on Sunday. Just 2 weeks from tomorrow I am heading to New York. It seems like it is all flying by. I have been talking to the guys regularly and we are all very exciting for it to be here.

This past week I had a doctor appointment and some blood work to see how things are going. Well all the meds are working and I am right on track. The small shot and the pills are sooo not so bad, the insomnia I can live with out though. Minus last night I have not slept more then 3 hours in 3 weeks. I have no idea how I function at all. But I do and I am wide awake, Ha. I did start a shot this week that was big enough to tranquilize a horse. It was 2 inches long and had to go right into the muscle on my lower back. It was not bad when it was done but wow the next day it felt like whether I stand or sit nothing would help. It is not done everyday, and I dont have to do it again till Tuesday then again Friday. Wow I will be fully injected by then Ha. It is all worth it. All these meds and such will be nice when they are all over and it is all put together.


Well this upcoming week is very busy for me with more restaurant opening planning and doctor visits. I have been reading all these websites from other surrogates and the journey we all go threw is just amazing. I am so lucky to be apart of this, and even luckier to have so many supporters. I think everyday what would I do with out all the love I have been given by all of you. I knew this was a definite decision for me but to have so many followers there are just no words to express how amazing I feel. My life is going great and I am so thankful that things just keep getting better. They say when you least expect it that is when it all comes together, well it is true. I am opening a restaurant in just over a month, I am going to be official a surrogate in just 2 weeks and I am just geared up to see what is next on my journey. Some people come and into and out of our lives and we are truly never the same. Well I am so thankful for all the great people that have crossed my path. I am such a strong woman and just hope that my happiness just continues to grow stronger.


Thank you so much for following me along, if there are any questions you have don't hesitate to ask. An hey if you are able to help a family out, help a single person, think about becoming a surrogate it is truly a gift of a lifetime. If it is to much just support everyone looking to have a family. Donate eggs or sperm even. It is the little gifts we give in life that make them one in a million. I promise next week to have a more exciting blog. Ha. I really am just so happy and I am still on cloud 9 with my decision to do this that I sometimes just dont have words to express it all.

I love ya'll and thanks for all the love... Smile it lasts a lifetime and you never know who is watching!!!!

3 Weeks away now...

WOW just 3 weeks away, time is a flyin by...


Hey everyone I didn't forget about my updates. I have had the worst insomnia and am lacking sleep, so excuse this post if its not as exciting, promise to add some after my doctor appointment Thursday. Well things are going right along. I have just started the insulin type injections and they are not as bad as I thought it was going to be. Have to say I give credit to those who have to give themselves injections daily for life. I don't enjoy watching it, but Chase is getting a kick out of me doing it. So things are on track and meds are not killing me yet.

Have a doctor's appointment Thursday to let me know if all is a okay and we are still set for September 28 date. Friday I start the other new medication. NOT feeling those, the needles are about 2 inches long and have to be injected in my lower back by obviously someone else. Thank god for a nurse as a neighbor. I will definitely be crying I'm sure.

The family is doing well and we exchange emails a few times a week. They are truly great people, and I could not be any happier for them. The plan is to have dinner when I arrive to NY the day before transfer so that should be exciting. They are flying in from London. What an experience.

Well I really am so thankful for everyone's support and I can not thank you enough for all the incredible feedback. I am so lucky to have friends that are giving me all this support. I knew those that mattered would understand and see all the amazing reasons for my decision. It is true what I say.. Sometimes it isn't the family you are born into but the one you make for yourself!! An I couldn't be happier to have this family in my life.

 Since my blog was somewhat short if you have time and have any questions or any thoughts for my next update or what youd like to hear or know, let me know... Thanks again everyone..

4 week count down...

Well I want to thank everyone again for all the amazing feedback I have received, I was truly overwhelmed with love from everyone. So, I promised it and here you have it my Sunday update. This may take a while, as I am sucked into the Emmy's already.

It is 4 weeks from yesterday that 'it' will officially happen. Can I tell you how excited I am? Very! All of you know me pretty well and know nerves are not part of my life. I go into everything with an open mind and just trust in myself that I will succeed. Well I have no doubt about it, I am ready! Just 4 weeks and it seems as the time is flying by. I will give any details I can about things and what I am going through weekly if you have any questions or comments please ask, as I am an open book.

I received my medications this week. I will start the meds which need to be taken via a small insulin type needle which doesn't seem as bad. Coming from the girl with tattoo's and piercings, eh how bad can it be ? Ask me again after wards. After this week will begin the larger needles for which I will take volunteers or friends I have ever make fun of, or who would just like to see me scream. Ha. Okay the list may be long so take a number, if you are chosen you will be notified. This is just all part of the process. Its preparing the body, oohhh.. Wow doesn't that sound kind of erotic? Yea as I have been watching the videos I can assure you there is nothing erotic about it. These meds are only starting my body.

So the IP's (intended parent's as they are called) I am keeping there information personal but will fill you in on what I can. They are two of the most amazing men and I could not be any happier to be involved. They are married, and are ready for the next step any married couple is ready to start. They could have chosen anyone and yet I was it. I plan to be the best oven I can. I already have the heat, well let's keep that between us, Ha. We all know I am a firecracker in so many words. They plan to be very involved in the whole process, so I do plan on giving them the details of craving cheeseburgers, to then throwing up the cheeseburgers, to stressing because I no longer feel like I have feet anymore. They are coming to New York to meet me for the transfer.

I just watched a video on the transfer experience and I can say it seems simple. I mean anything involving incubating some embryos then inserting how hard can that be? I will let you know.  Well I am ready for everything to come. I have had a few friends ask some questions like What about getting fat? What about losing the weight? What made you say yes? Were you nervous about anyone's response. So I will now answer.

What about getting fat? Well everyone does at some point so, why not just have an excuse to eat?  At least now when I go to KFC and say 1 bucket of chicken, 3 biscuits, mashed potatoes, and a soda I can also say for here not to go!!! Eh don't judge...

Now on losing weight... Well I plan to work my ass off and after these 9 months treat myself to laying on a beach somewhere!!

What made me say yes? I mean is that even a question. I have the most amazing 7 year old anyone could ever ask for. Those of you who have children, or who plan to have children , or even like watching children on tv all know the pleasure of kids. They are just the most fascinating humans in the world. Some people take having children for granted but well some know the struggles and challenges having children can be. Gay or straights the choice to have a child is all for great plans for a family. I can tell you how happy I am to be apart of this. To give someone the gift of a lifetime. To know that they still were able to have such an amazing gift even though at one time they may have seen it as impossible. Nothing in life is impossible. Dreams, hopes, it is all possible you just have to want and achieve them.

Final question, was I nervous about anyone's response. Honestly I have to say not one bit. I knew from day one this was what I was going to do, it was more of I hope people will trust in my choices and just support me along the way. Well I am only 4 weeks away from the day and I have more supporters then I ever thought. Makes me think now, wow can I petition for Chelsea Lately and make it on the show. Ha! Well anyway I am very very grateful to have all of you in my life and I am truly excited to say I have so many amazing people who are joining me on such a great journey.

Well you all who know me know I usually turn everything into a joke or well... break into song.. Tonight I would like to say the song that sums up everything right now... Somewhere over the rainbow... Lets you know dreams do come true and I am happy to help two amazing loving men's dream come true!!!

Thanks again everyone, looking forward to questions and comments and I will be back next Sunday!!

I can't thank you enough....

Well everyone I am truly over joyed by all the comments, messages on facebook and emails I have received about my blog. I had over 100 visitors since I posted last night, it is amazing. I truly feel loved and supported by all of you. I wasn't quite sure the reaction I was going to get but this turn out is amazing. I am so excited to have you share in my journey with me and we all in this as a family it feels like. It is not the family you are born into, but truly the one you make for yourself. I feel like I have a wonderful experience ahead of me and I am full of sunshine and rainbows to come. I promise to let you feel what I feel, learn as I learn, and well just join on this journey with me. I have a great path ahead and only have good things to come. So thank you again everyone, keep the comments coming and keep on following.. New updates Sunday.. Love ya'll...

One thought to start.....

So back in March I saw a poster for donating eggs. I was kind of curious about it and started to read more into it.While doing some research online I came across surrogacy. I thought wow all the people out there who take having children for granted and yet so many who can't just have a child the 'old fashion way'. I decided I am going to sign up. A few weeks went by and it had slipped my mind. An then one email from the agency and said we had a perfect fit for you. I can't even tell you how wide my eyes were reading the email. I have a wonderful son Chase who is the light of my life, staring at him I thought everyone needs this. So I began the research and said "I'm in". It start with a phone call with the attended parents. Phone calls normally last 30 minutes and ours was on the route to almost 2 hours. I was filled with so much joy and excitement from the first hello they gave me. I hung up the phone and said I can not wait to give this wonderful family the gift of a lifetime. I am sure by now you have about a million questions and comments which can be posted for me. I talked about the opportunity with close friends and family and then it was on to tell Chase. I had to have his approval even though my heart told me this is a gift you have to do. I went to prepare the speak at a 7 year old level. Chase there is a family who wants children just like you and is having some obstacles in that. I am going to help them and have a baby for them. Chase's first words "Mom, you don't look that fat yet". What kids say, Ha. I said no not yet it will happen in a few weeks but is that okay with you? He goes on to say "Mom I just have to know... They won't be coming back here when they are out right?" I said "No Chase, it would be this families baby I am just the... well the oven". Chase said "Well if they are not coming here, let's do it". So we are. It started with blood tests and an ultra sound while on a trip to New York where the embryos (not my eggs) are being stored. All the tests came back and the ultra sound was great. So my calendar is set and I have started the BCP that are needed. Implantation is set for September 28. I can't tell you how grateful I feel to be able to give this live long gift to a family. I know many people have said "how can you just carry a baby for 9 months and give it away?" to me the answer was since it is this families baby and I am well.. the oven. The joy I feel, the joy I hear from them it is a no brainer. Those that mind don't matter, and those that matter understand and are fully supportive. I plan on blogging threw out my whole journey so not only can you experience what I am doing but you also can feel the joy. Thanks for taking the time to read my blog there is MUCH more to come.....