4 week count down...

Well I want to thank everyone again for all the amazing feedback I have received, I was truly overwhelmed with love from everyone. So, I promised it and here you have it my Sunday update. This may take a while, as I am sucked into the Emmy's already.

It is 4 weeks from yesterday that 'it' will officially happen. Can I tell you how excited I am? Very! All of you know me pretty well and know nerves are not part of my life. I go into everything with an open mind and just trust in myself that I will succeed. Well I have no doubt about it, I am ready! Just 4 weeks and it seems as the time is flying by. I will give any details I can about things and what I am going through weekly if you have any questions or comments please ask, as I am an open book.

I received my medications this week. I will start the meds which need to be taken via a small insulin type needle which doesn't seem as bad. Coming from the girl with tattoo's and piercings, eh how bad can it be ? Ask me again after wards. After this week will begin the larger needles for which I will take volunteers or friends I have ever make fun of, or who would just like to see me scream. Ha. Okay the list may be long so take a number, if you are chosen you will be notified. This is just all part of the process. Its preparing the body, oohhh.. Wow doesn't that sound kind of erotic? Yea as I have been watching the videos I can assure you there is nothing erotic about it. These meds are only starting my body.

So the IP's (intended parent's as they are called) I am keeping there information personal but will fill you in on what I can. They are two of the most amazing men and I could not be any happier to be involved. They are married, and are ready for the next step any married couple is ready to start. They could have chosen anyone and yet I was it. I plan to be the best oven I can. I already have the heat, well let's keep that between us, Ha. We all know I am a firecracker in so many words. They plan to be very involved in the whole process, so I do plan on giving them the details of craving cheeseburgers, to then throwing up the cheeseburgers, to stressing because I no longer feel like I have feet anymore. They are coming to New York to meet me for the transfer.

I just watched a video on the transfer experience and I can say it seems simple. I mean anything involving incubating some embryos then inserting how hard can that be? I will let you know.  Well I am ready for everything to come. I have had a few friends ask some questions like What about getting fat? What about losing the weight? What made you say yes? Were you nervous about anyone's response. So I will now answer.

What about getting fat? Well everyone does at some point so, why not just have an excuse to eat?  At least now when I go to KFC and say 1 bucket of chicken, 3 biscuits, mashed potatoes, and a soda I can also say for here not to go!!! Eh don't judge...

Now on losing weight... Well I plan to work my ass off and after these 9 months treat myself to laying on a beach somewhere!!

What made me say yes? I mean is that even a question. I have the most amazing 7 year old anyone could ever ask for. Those of you who have children, or who plan to have children , or even like watching children on tv all know the pleasure of kids. They are just the most fascinating humans in the world. Some people take having children for granted but well some know the struggles and challenges having children can be. Gay or straights the choice to have a child is all for great plans for a family. I can tell you how happy I am to be apart of this. To give someone the gift of a lifetime. To know that they still were able to have such an amazing gift even though at one time they may have seen it as impossible. Nothing in life is impossible. Dreams, hopes, it is all possible you just have to want and achieve them.

Final question, was I nervous about anyone's response. Honestly I have to say not one bit. I knew from day one this was what I was going to do, it was more of I hope people will trust in my choices and just support me along the way. Well I am only 4 weeks away from the day and I have more supporters then I ever thought. Makes me think now, wow can I petition for Chelsea Lately and make it on the show. Ha! Well anyway I am very very grateful to have all of you in my life and I am truly excited to say I have so many amazing people who are joining me on such a great journey.

Well you all who know me know I usually turn everything into a joke or well... break into song.. Tonight I would like to say the song that sums up everything right now... Somewhere over the rainbow... Lets you know dreams do come true and I am happy to help two amazing loving men's dream come true!!!

Thanks again everyone, looking forward to questions and comments and I will be back next Sunday!!

I can't thank you enough....

Well everyone I am truly over joyed by all the comments, messages on facebook and emails I have received about my blog. I had over 100 visitors since I posted last night, it is amazing. I truly feel loved and supported by all of you. I wasn't quite sure the reaction I was going to get but this turn out is amazing. I am so excited to have you share in my journey with me and we all in this as a family it feels like. It is not the family you are born into, but truly the one you make for yourself. I feel like I have a wonderful experience ahead of me and I am full of sunshine and rainbows to come. I promise to let you feel what I feel, learn as I learn, and well just join on this journey with me. I have a great path ahead and only have good things to come. So thank you again everyone, keep the comments coming and keep on following.. New updates Sunday.. Love ya'll...

One thought to start.....

So back in March I saw a poster for donating eggs. I was kind of curious about it and started to read more into it.While doing some research online I came across surrogacy. I thought wow all the people out there who take having children for granted and yet so many who can't just have a child the 'old fashion way'. I decided I am going to sign up. A few weeks went by and it had slipped my mind. An then one email from the agency and said we had a perfect fit for you. I can't even tell you how wide my eyes were reading the email. I have a wonderful son Chase who is the light of my life, staring at him I thought everyone needs this. So I began the research and said "I'm in". It start with a phone call with the attended parents. Phone calls normally last 30 minutes and ours was on the route to almost 2 hours. I was filled with so much joy and excitement from the first hello they gave me. I hung up the phone and said I can not wait to give this wonderful family the gift of a lifetime. I am sure by now you have about a million questions and comments which can be posted for me. I talked about the opportunity with close friends and family and then it was on to tell Chase. I had to have his approval even though my heart told me this is a gift you have to do. I went to prepare the speak at a 7 year old level. Chase there is a family who wants children just like you and is having some obstacles in that. I am going to help them and have a baby for them. Chase's first words "Mom, you don't look that fat yet". What kids say, Ha. I said no not yet it will happen in a few weeks but is that okay with you? He goes on to say "Mom I just have to know... They won't be coming back here when they are out right?" I said "No Chase, it would be this families baby I am just the... well the oven". Chase said "Well if they are not coming here, let's do it". So we are. It started with blood tests and an ultra sound while on a trip to New York where the embryos (not my eggs) are being stored. All the tests came back and the ultra sound was great. So my calendar is set and I have started the BCP that are needed. Implantation is set for September 28. I can't tell you how grateful I feel to be able to give this live long gift to a family. I know many people have said "how can you just carry a baby for 9 months and give it away?" to me the answer was since it is this families baby and I am well.. the oven. The joy I feel, the joy I hear from them it is a no brainer. Those that mind don't matter, and those that matter understand and are fully supportive. I plan on blogging threw out my whole journey so not only can you experience what I am doing but you also can feel the joy. Thanks for taking the time to read my blog there is MUCH more to come.....