7 weeks down...

Sorry on the delay on the blog but I am back at it now.. I want to say that yes all has worked and I am now 7 weeks pregnant. We had the first sonogram yesterday and all is up to date. 123 heartbeat and about the size of a raisin. The guys are extremely happy as are we for them.

I am feeling tired already, some clothes are already not friends of mine and chicken well.... Is no longer my everything... I will say that girl scout cookies could not have come out at a better time being I ate almost two whole boxes in 2 days.

Things all on track the due date is October 14. I really would like to thank everyone for all of your support and love that you have shown us all. An I can't tell you how much it has all meant to me. I would also like to thank the woman who has not only dealt with my hormones already, helped with my weekly shots, but has been my rock through this whole process, Emily. I could not have done even half of this with out her by my side. She has took on a great thing with me and it only shows me what a fabulous partner I have.Not that I wasn't completely sure before all of this but I know for sure that I can get through anything because I have love, security, and happiness in my life with her.

So everyone prepare for 8 more months of blogs, pictures, complaining ha ha and lots of hormones... I plan to be more active with my blog and keeping everyone involved in this fantastic journey. People keep telling me what a great thing I am doing and how proud they are of me. Well it is a no brainer this decision and I would only hope their are more people out there who can help give life to amazing families who just want a child. No thanks are needed it is truly my pleasure to share in this gift. 

The results are in.....

Well everyone our New York trip went great. The transfer went well and minus all the snow it was a great visit. Em took great care of me and made sure I did just what she or well... the doctor ordered. Well after bed rest, we ventured out in the city to Regis and Kelly and Rachael Ray. It was definitely a great trip. Well all the bed rest, and my girlfriend insisting on doing everything for me paid off.

The results just came in, and I am in fact pregnant. Thanks to everyone for all the great emails, and comments. I appreciate everyone who is following my blog as it will continue through out this whole journey. Em and I are so excited for the guys and are ready for the road ahead. 

I have so much love and support and I couldn't have done this all with out my girlfriend. She is truly one of a kind. Love you babe.

Tomorrow is the day.....

Hey everyone! Thanks so much for continuing to follow my blog. Well we are back at it again. Seems like just yesterday I started this blog, and now I am on my way to New York tomorrow. Things have been going so well and it is so exciting to share this journey with all of you. The love and support I have received from all of you has made everything so much easier.

Well the guys came on Sunday for the day and we took them sight seeing. We had a great walk around DC, seeing all the monuments and enjoying the sights. We had a fabulous dinner at Carmine's and we really all felt like family. We started this journey as complete strangers and we have come to blend all together to have a great friendship.

Tomorrow Emily and I get on the train and arrive in New York at 11am. We have plans for lunch then it is time for our appointment. This cycle was a fresh cycle so all the embryos are ready to go. I have been continuing all the medications and shots that is needed and my body apparently is better then it ever could be. Bring it on I say.

I was so worried for so long, if everyone will understand, will I have to answer 1000 questions but you know?? I have yet to come across anyone who doesn't get it, who doesn't support us and it is truly a great feeling. I have all the hope and faith that this is their time. They are two fabulous men who will be amazing parents, and I am so happy to be involved.

I want to take a moment to not only thank all of you who have supported me but my girlfriend Emily who has been my rock through it all. She has been the one to help with the muscular needles, she has been there for all the doctor appointments I have had to go and she will be right along side me tomorrow and everyday on. She is truly the love of my life and I am so happy to have love and support and joy from my other half.

 Well wish me luck everyone.. Transfer is at 130pm tomorrow then bed rest for the day. We will know Feb 4th if it all worked out. Keep me in your thoughts!!!

Surrogate Round 2

Hey everyone, well what a year 2010 was. I thought it was the right moment to start up the blog and more so with great news. The past 4 months have been great. Although the surrogacy didn't work on my first try I have good feelings it will work on round 2. 2011 is only a week away and I am ready for what ever the year will bring. I have 3 amazing people in my life, my girlfriend Emily, my sister Tiffani and my son Chase. I only see a great year ahead for the 3 of us. I couldn't ask for 3 better people to be surrounded with daily. The 3 of them truly make my life a happier place and they make it easy to wake up each morning with a smile on my face. My son is a spit in image of me and he makes me laugh so hard I cry. My sister has grown up to be a mature girl who I am so lucky to watch grow up to the wonderful woman she is. An my girlfriend she is not just an amazing role model for the kids but an incredible woman who completes me and just makes me so happy to have found the love she has shown me. With love an support from them as well as my friends I know this surrogate journey will be a success.

Tests have been done and meds have been started. I am planned to be in New York for my transfer the end of January. I started making this decision not knowing what anyone was going to think or say. Will all the love, and messages I have received I am so lucky to have you all in my life. I knew about 2 great guys who had a great marriage and career and just missing one special piece for them to have a family. These men went from strangers to people I can call great friends. Exchanging weekly emails, funny jokes and even Christmas cards. I can not express how this journey has already changed my views of the world. I am so happy to be able to try this again and as we wrote out their Christmas card this year it said "We can wait to address this to 3 next year''. I am so lucky to have been joined together with them and even more hopeful that all will be a success this time around.

So I wanted to give everyone an update and share my happiness. Thank you for all of your support and I will continue to share my journey with each of you as it unfolds. Wish me luck.... 

Updated News....

Hey everyone, I was waiting to update my blog until I had news on all the testing that had been done. I thought the worst part was the 11 day wait for news but the news was definitely the worst part. I am a strong person but I will be the first to admit it hit me harder then I had anticipated.

Well my tests came back negative. It was nothing I did at all. The embryos that they had frozen and then thawed out just weren't of the best quality. They had 5 and all had to be thawed for the quality of the best 2, which still were not 100 percent. So I received the news the same day as the blood work, and let the family know. We are all bummed and yet we all knew the chances were slim once they saw the embryos.

I am still going to continue in there dream of having a family. Now the process just starts over. It will begin again in about 4-6 weeks. They have to work with the donor and then we will start again. I am very hopeful that it will work the next time and only wished it was a positive result this time. Nothing more we can do now then to start again.

I would like to say thanks to everyone for all of your support and I am so thankful for all the great comments, emails and messages I have received from everyone. My life is going great and I am very happy with my decision to continue on this journey even though it did not work the first chance. So it has yet to end here, it is just another beginning...

The NYC trip

I want to start by saying thank you for everyone wishing me Good luck and for all the emails and such I received. Sorry I was unable to blog while I was in Ny but I didn't have my laptop with me. So I arrived in New York on Monday. I had dinner with the guys. The dinner could not have gone any better. We were literally there for 4 hours, laughing, talking even telling some jokes. The connection was perfect and we all knew we had made a great decision picking one another.

We decided Tuesday we were going to grab lunch before the transfer. We met at a little cafe and already felt as if we had been friends for years. After lunch we walked around until our appointment at 1:30pm.  By now all my nerves had just gone away. It was so real, it was so accurate to why I had made this decision for them, for myself , for all the right reasons. The joy on there faces talking about a child or twins and the hopes and dreams they had it took all I had to keep tears in. It was just a glow upon my face that just said 'Jess, you are truly changing someones life for all the right reasons'. An I could not be any happier.

We arrived at the office a little early and they were already prepared for us. I went to a room as if you were to get a normal gyno check up. Not hospital like as what I had assumed. Above me was all a tv to which led to where the embryos were frozen, thawed and kept. They had 5 embryos and out of 5, 2 were of good quality. So it was a little upsetting to hear that there were no longer others to fall back in. So time to put all the pressure on me if this doesn't take we all much start from the very beginning.  No pressure I kept saying in my head, mean while just trying to keep the sweat from falling off my forehead. There were 2 and they were okay so we went on. The whole process took maybe 11 minutes and painless as anything. Once they were transferred and by a hairline tool you could actually see them fall into the uterus. Looked just like shooting stars on the screen, so leave it to be to lighten up the room and start singing "Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky were like shooting stars, We could really use a wish right now right now.. " We all laughed and it brought everyone spirits up a lot. So I sat for about 20 minutes and now all we can do is wait. No heavy lifting, no working out, taking it easy for 2 weeks. The test will be done next Friday Oct 8 and it will tell us yes or no to it working, from there another test is done that Monday to say if yes is it 1 or 2.

If you know me well at all you know my patience eh is very good so this wait is just torture on me. Now just the wait but to know if it worked or do we need to start from day 1. So all good wishes would be fabulous right now. I am not one to trust my hope in God or a higher being but anything to give some positive thoughts my way would be very very appreciated. So now all we can do is wait and hope that life does great things..


Thank you again for all the love and support I have received it only helped my nerves, my thoughts and well made me smile the whole time since I started to share in blogs with everyone.. Well the time finally came, and lets just keep our chin up... 

It is here....

Hey everyone well I am off to New York tomorrow. I feel like it was just yesterday I was even asked about this. Then came the worry of how people would react, I talked about my journey and now here it is. Wow!! I went for my last ultrasound on Thursday and apparently I am so ready I am like a Caribbean vacation. I of course with my wit and humor says to the doctor 'Wow, I wish I knew I had a vacation spot, I should start charging a fee'. Of course, she didn't see my humor. Ha. I did find it quite funny.

So now here I am Sunday all packed and ready to head to New York in the morning on the Amtrak. Going to have dinner with the guys in the wonderful Bryant Park. I am a little nervous about that, I hope they like me. But it is like we have known each other a lot longer with our daily exchange of emails. I will also fill everyone in on how the meet and greet goes, any advice?

Well I am very excited and very ready for what the next 3 days shall bring, I mean besides the amazing Ny food I can't wait to eat. I also plan to blog the next 3 days so you can all continue of this journey I am leading. I am so thankful for all of your support I feel like it was just yesterday I had decided to start this blog hoping at least one person would ready it. Well now well over 600 have. I can't begin to express how amazing that makes me feel. It really shows me that it doesn't matter how often you talk to someone, if someone if family or once even maybe an enemy but when someone feels the joy and the journey you are about to embark on and welcomes your decision with open arms well that is what just lets you know you have real friends. Thank you again so much for all the support. Tuesday at 2pm is the day.

Will blog tomorrow evening, and you can follow me tomorrow on facebook. What would it be with out an update of my train ride.. Wish me luck...